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Break it down- The name's Skye, I'm pretty much a complete freak in a good way. I've been chilling on planet Earth since August 5th; 1992.. You do the math. People always say I'm weird, random, friendly, psycho, talkative and fun. I hope you all learn that too! What do I like ? --friends. music. one tree hill!!! males. the net. movies. kawaiiville; honest people. &&chocolate. want more..?
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She cried so long her tears ran dry.
October 13, 2008 Filed Under: Exposed, Friends, Lyrics/Quotes, Offline, Venting 388 words
I think, there’s something, somewhere out there, that is one hundred percent against me. In all honesty, I haven’t had a good day in so long, I’ve faked it don’t get me wrong, but I have not had an actual good day, a positive upbeat day, in months at least. I barely remember the feeling of happiness. Everytime I think I’m approaching it, something knocks me back down. Now I know, I’m not the only one going through this kind of mood, but no-one knows whats going on. Not a single person out there can relate one hundred percent to what I’m going through right now. I feel so alienated.
So, as bad days go, this one went from bad to worse. I was actually glad when I woke up this morning. I wanted to go back to school.. But no, as usual it was not at all what I was expecting. Everyone seemed against me, so yeh, I’ve already blogged about that today (see “This is real, This is me” for more detail) but then, I get home thinking that it can’t possibly get any worse. I go outside and bang, it starts raining on me! So I come back inside, and sit in my room alone. No-one made any effort to talk to me or anything, so I didn’t bother. Fast forward to about an hour ago, and suddenly mothers boyfriend ‘Z’ is going psycho. He starts yelling and then I hear papers being thrown, then I hear the remote. My mum kept going and he was like JUST SHUT UP. So I screamed. Then he walked out of their room and he’s now sleeping on the couch. It’s freakishly silent in my house. Deadly silent. I’m not game enough to leave the room even though I really need to pee.
I’m not going all suicidal or anything, but honestly, I’ve run out of crying. I’ve no tears left. I just don’t know how much longer I can handle this. It’s pushing me too far. I hate it. I hate the feeling. I hate my world…
Somewhere down this road I know someone’s waiting. Years of dreams just can’t be wrong.
- Anastasia.
Skye.xo`
Comment by Mai on October 15th, 2008 @ 1:55 am
Don’t give up on the world just yet. There’s always something you might missing because you were too hung up to notice it.
All you need is a good friend to lean on for a while, till things start picking up; I know sometimes you just feel so isolated and no one wants to talk to you, and you just feel like blah, but try make an effort. It’s not that some people don’t want to talk to you, it’s that they don’t want to annoy you or feel like total idiots when they do make the effort incase you reject them.
If that doesn’t take your mind of things, try video games (online are more fun or wii), drawing, cooking, running etc. Anything that your interested in, turn it something huge. You like photography, try scrapbooking too?
Cheer up soon x